I am on the path to redemption
Well, not quite, that's a deception
All I truly seek is to relieve this tension
The alternate routes are not worthy of mention

I shall try to rekindle my essence
Find a cure to this pestilence
Maybe I truly do need repentance
Or is it another trick to just end this?

I cannot know any more
My self was lost long ago
Will it come back I do not know
Will I adopt a new shell for show
Will I obtain a new lifestyle
I need to be alone
For a while