My conscience keeps spiraling inward
I can't save myself from this darkness
I can't resist the temptations forever
Please anyone save my soul
I can't feel anything but a hole
I feel like I'm going out of control
Something inside me I cannot withhold
Rearing its head as if to say "No more old"
It just needs a release, an escape
I fear it can't be coaxed away from its fate
The walls close around me I have no choice
I want to scream but I have no voice
I cannot cry I cannot die
I let out an ambiguous sigh

Michael won't you sleep?
To allow your conscience a moment to weep?
No of course not, that would be admitting defeat.
Delusions of grandeur control you, a fleeting feat

Won't you open your heart for us?
Don't you have something to discuss?
I thought I was someone you could trust
I saw your heart sink into the ocean
You didn't even make a commotion

Could this be the tides of a hard lesson?
The knowledge that your contrived pain would never lessen?
I know you believe the solution is solitude
But you must realize that answer is crude
Yes, even though for the meantime you can only brood
In the depths of your mind you do require the same food

I need it to live

The moments come one by one
The times when I become the polar of Eros
Unavoidable like the death of the Pharaohs
I force myself to slow, in order to soak up the upcoming show

It's an unshakable insatiable lust, one which renders me incapable of trust
I fear and fawn over the inevitable inability to control myself, even though I must
A hunger so severe I cannot tell how far my carnal consumption will go
A fraudulent, vacillating reality, phasing in and out, to and fro

Every time I try to become a person
My cruel condition seems to worsen
An impossible, crushing burden

I stare into my lifeless eyes
I search for the answer
To why everyone dies
But they are filled with lies
Each being an Iris I despise
Hatred linked to the inability to cry

I occasionally forget to resist death
Perhaps for the best
Yes, a world without me, one less

It ends abruptly
Although no one can disrupt me
I regain my self
Discard the marred memory to the solitary shelf
Until next time
The emaciated ending of the subhuman sublime

I guess I am a loner
Heading down a stray path
To try and find the greener grass
No happiness ever lasts
So I try to live in the past
I want to experience love
And feel my soul fly so high above
I wait for that feeling to come
But it never does

So I go through my day
Emptiness filling the way
Will this feeling ever dissipate
I have nothing to hope for so I just wait
For an imaginary savior called fate

I'm bored of this world

Life is something you do day by day
Whenever you cannot go on
Just remember what I say
It's not about how far you've gone
It's about finding the warmth on the way

You need to find what gives you strength
Something that will help you achieve great length
Something that will assist you in your endeavors
A permanent support forever and ever
For whenever you feel under the weather

After all what is a life worth if it is denied warmth
I can tell you from experience it is like the city of Corinth
You can feel like you have an unshakable base
But up from under the difficulty you cannot face
Will undoubtedly arise, and take you from that place

This is why I am telling you
To forget about what they say
You need to find that warmth
Hold on to it and let none take it away
It's the only way to keep nothingness at bay
I implore you to make your life not one to be mourn'th


With love,

The forlorn

The music flows through my veins
The only thing that numbs the pain
From living in a world so vain
A single string keeping me sane
Logic binds me like a chain
Something so useless and plain
I wished for the rhythmic rain
To dance down and brighten my day
It never came
Truly a shame